I am a 19 year old girl.
I still call my mother every time I fight with my friend and I still cry every time my parents scold me. I still feel, a part of me never grew up. And it never will.
As we grow up, our struggles in life get bigger. We have larger things to deal with, bigger problems to handle and breakdowns become a common part of life.
Today, I want to reach out to all those people who don’t seem to find a solution to their problems and are also losing hope.
When you were 1 year old, you had a habit of touching things thinking whatever would happen next will surely be amazing.
When you were 2 years old, you first learned to speak and used that ability to get things done.
When you were 3 years old, you went to a super market and yelled at your mom to buy you that favorite chocolate of yours. You didn’t care about what people around you thought or said at that point of time.
When you were 4 years old, you built your favorite Barbie house and you became your hero. That one house made you so proud.
When you were 5 years old, you fell off the bicycle while learning. You laughed at your injuries, got up and tried again.
When you were 6 years old, you began to understand how difficult it was to make friends at school. You started understanding how complex relationships are.
When you were 7 years old, you had your first crush. You talked to him or her once during the break and shared each other’s tiffins.
When you were 8 years old, you were told by your father to study well for the next exam and take academics seriously. You believed when he said that you’d fail in life if you didn’t pass the exam.
When you were 9 years old, you started believing that in order to look ‘COOL’, you need to have the right garments and accessories. So you insisted on buying that favorite tee of yours and that bracelet too.
When you were 10 years old, you got scared about the next level of school and started questioning your ability.
When you were 11 years old, you did’nt get selected for your favourite dance team and you promised yourself to work harder.
When you were 12 years old, you lied to your parents about the broken glass and your fight with your neighbor. You thought you will deal with it yourself.
When you were 13 years old, your favorite singer was the coolest person on earth. You wanted to be so much like him/ her.
When you were 14 years old, you doubted your ability to get into your dream college because everyone told you it’s important and a do or die situation.
When you were 15 years old, you realized that the world was unfair. You cried when he or she didn’t text you back. You cried because you thought your teacher and your parents didn’t understand you.
When you were 16 years old, you realized all the things you asked for in childhood are not so cheap. And that it wasn’t an easy job to earn money and fill your stomach.
When you were 17 years old, you wanted to be sure of the field you’d get in. You wanted your career to be sorted and things to be in place.
When you were 18 years old, you realized, that the choice was yours as to what kind of a life you wanted for yourself.
Look at yourself today. Struggling, tired, annoyed, irritated and looking for answers in books, songs and other people.
Now look at the 5 year old you. That kid has all the answers. That kid had the guts and the courage to fall, get up and get back even stronger.
In every phase of life, you had all the solutions to all your problems.
You knew everything about life at every point of time.
The way you navigated life when you were a child is exactly how you should be doing now.
You just have to forget everything you’ve learnt along the way until you get back to your five year old self.
Don’t lose hope. You’ve done all this before. A long time ago.